Tuesday, June 26

i can't.

how to die to self...so that self is gone..so that my faith can be selfless??

i can't muster up being a Christian wonder-woman on my own.. i can't convince myself to constantly do the 'right ' thing. i can't come up with creative conversation starters every time i'm with someone. i can't faithfully pray when i should. i can't act honestly in every circumstance with my own will.
why i think i can come up with a strategic plan to make it to the mission field and love lost people and lead them to Christ when i can't even do the dishes every day with a happy spirit unto the Lord...

no i can't. 
again Pauls words remind me 
"I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me" (gal 2:20)

i found comfort in this quote: "When I understand that everything happening to me is to make me more Christlike, it solves a great deal of anxiety." AW Tozer

thoughts with no conclusion..just resting in Christ's perfect peace.
 HE IS FAITHFUL TO DO A WORK IN ME!
Whatever it takes...Father never stop ridding of 'self'! burn on roots in my life that are not digging into You...Oh that everyone who crosses my path would see You, come to know You and Glorify You! amen. 

Monday, June 18

gumbled thoughts:My prayer is to be Intentional


roommates- sisters- friends (Photo: Bree Ammerman)
                     
Intentional- This is one thought or conviction rooted from an accumulation of many thoughts, conversations and prayers. As I talk with other Believers ive been challenged to think through how the Spirit is revealing my lack of intentionality in the way I act with others. With one sister we talked about looking at Christ’s life because His actions are the very definition of being intentional... He was so compassionate, perfectly selfless, and generous with both physical and spiritual needs. The very heartbeat behind everything He said and did was flawless love. Paul tells the Corinth church;
 “Be imitators of me, as I am of Christ (1Cor11:1 )” 
Imitate Christ… wow.

Christ’s intentional love was not comfortable.
Living 24/7 with believers (in a dorm) makes it easy to brush off the necessity of loving each other. Tasks have taken over and become the only agenda we have. What a dangerous place to be…my attitude says, “ I like to see people when I want to and I put up a ‘busy’ wall when I don’t”. For a while now I see a pattern of only talking or encouraging when I deem it of importance and saying nothing if I am to ‘lazy’ or don’t care. No one is making an effort to bless me so why should I bless others.
The point being made is I cannot love intentionally if I am focused on me.

Love with faith. At the very end of Paul’s letter to the Ephesian church he says these very powerful words:  
 Peace be to the brothers, and love with faith, from God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ.Grace be with all who love our Lord Jesus Christ with love incorruptible.  (Eph. 6:23-24)
What does it mean to love with faith? This faith is from God the Father and the Lord Jesus Christ; and it produces love in and through us. When we submit to Christ in us it is His love that penetrates out. This is the source of intentional love. This love does not disappoint and cause us hurt or make us require something in return.  Loving in faith is not easy but it is rewarding as you learn to tap into the endless flow of Christ’s love toward everyone.

As Christ works in and through me it is becoming more and more evident when I am being intentional and not...the peace of God begins to lead my actions. This time away from scheduled classes and as work as come to an end for the summer; every bit of my heart desires to serve the Lord; to not be lazy or indulge in strictly selfish actions. Again and again I pray that the Lord might push me out of my comfort zone and put me in places where I must rely fully on Him to intentionally love and speak truth. I pray He continues to bring me to a place where I am not comfortable but I am completely overcome with His peace and leading.
Romans 12:9-16
Let love be genuine. Abhor what is evil; hold fast to what is good.
Love one another with brotherly affection. Outdo one another in showing honor.
Do not be slothful in zeal, be fervent in spirit, serve the Lord.
Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.
Contribute to the needs of the saints and seek to show hospitality.
Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse them.
Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep.
Live in harmony with one another. Do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly. Never be wise in your own sight.
               
 Is God’s story [the GOSPEL] WORTHY TO BE INTENTIONAL about?
For I am not ashamed of the gospel, for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes, to the Jew first and also to the Greek.  Rom 1:16